tis feel cum find me again le......

tis few day i almost on9 n cum here write sumting................
wat i write?
i dunno...
wat i realy think i wan nw??
i oso dunno
wat oso dunno......
nw i think bk, i really long time no cry le,,
suddenly wanna hav a big big crying.....
recentl,,i really think lots of thing about me......
i think i m wat type of ppl??
....izzit a person like hav a laugh,lik do many sohai things???....like a clown??
i dun think so loh.....
Bt all my fren wif me long time d is say like tat..........haiz.....

Tat day go out wif my bf(best fren),,really a long time v no meet tgt le！
so i asking tat guy izzit i always make ppl think i m a casual ppl??
then d answer is ....YES!
but tat guy noe i m nt a such guy d...
he say jz look like all dun care but acually he noe me vr hav heart...
although i din say anything at tat time.....
but,
i agreen wif him.....
but ,
dunno ahhh
really sohai.....
dunno wat i wan......
izzit i wan ppl care me lots??
my family.....frens??? or i....................
dunno ahhh
bfor it hav ppl tell me...
wat i doing like a clown is show tat i m a no confidents person....
i will do like tat cos i wan ppl agreen wif i of wat i m doing.......
i think it is..
nw i think bk wat i do bfor really feel shame...
really......
childish....sohai.................
skh, b more mature lah......
hiaz.......
tis thing i really wan change it.....
can i do it??
wil i make it???
but nw i dunno wanna hw to do to change.....
cos them ard use to my style.......
haizzzzzzzz.
i wanna b a real me ahhhhh
haiz..enough lah......dun wan write liao lah.....

Next topic lah

Tis marning,
my mum call me wake up at 8......
i hav enough slp lah
i really dun wan wake d.....
but i cant do it.....
cos is my mum call.....haiz....
she cal me wake up is jz wan me go to d park near by our house.....aiyo,,,siezzz dao
kk,go go go.....haiz...
after wait them do exercise at thr,, v a hol family go hav a breakfirst.....
kk
then go bk....
at home...
1st thing i do is open d comp....
then my mum see le say.....dun always face d comp, try to talk more wif family..like sharing anything i like, happy? unhappy?
...
accually i hav many thing wan to share wif..bt
i dunno hav to starting.....
i really wan tell her many many i hav lie her bfor.....
but i cant make it............

Mayb it is d fact of i feel tat vr FAN....
is d fact make me wanna hav a big big cry??
i really dunno.....